-You didn’t text me at all

-You “forgot” about me in the morning and only remmebered while you got on msn,what happened? Did you do it on purpose?

-I texted you,since you didn’t do it

When i texted you on Thursday after you not talking to me all day,i’m not sure why you haven’t texted me at all, you told me to “go have fun”.

That really hurt Chris, because it was easy for you to say when you were doing that and you were also able to do that. And I know you’re aware that I can’t do that as easy as you,considerign where I am right now and I felt like you were rubbing it in my face.

-You changed Chris,since you started going to those meetings

-You don’t text me,you don’t seem to want me,you seem to just want to go to those meetings and prepare for those a lot

-You  remember information about the meetings more than about our activites

-Do you like someone else?

Chris, if you’d really like me,you’d bring me along to your meetings. Because you’re aware that I don’t have many friends here or activities. I’d also like it if you’d be able to introduce me to your friends,why is that so difficult for you? 

I honestly just think that you don’t want me to come because you’re afraid your friends will meet me.

I honestly never expected it would happen like this,i honestly didn’t think you’d do it again,the same way. But,I can’t help but wonder,do you miss me?

Do you think of me at least a little ? Do you plan to see me,even for a little?Do you plan to apologize?Did you really end it?

I feel lost at some points,but I can’t help wondering; what happened to you?

That Monday,you wished for my death,you said I have nothing that interests you, you said “my shell” is ugly. You turned into a monster, you scared me and I was glad that you “left” but I still love you even if you don’t believe me.

Perhaps I don’t love this new you,you are trying to be.But I fell in love with you and i loved you. The old you.

I’m scared you don’t miss me at all.I’m scared you don’t even want me in your life anymore.I’m hurt by these thoughts and I hope,so badly,that you will come back to me.I want you,I don’t even know what to do.So much pain and all in vain.

I want to talk to you and ask you;

“What are you up to?”

I miss the times when you talked sweetly to me and the times you cared about me so much you traveled quickly to my place and asked me what was wrong and said you were worried an hugged me when I cried.

I miss you badly and I wish you felt the same way,